Well, today I discovered that my "theme" or "word" for the year is going to be....
I've struggled with insecurity a LOT in my life so far, and even though I know that it's something I will continue to struggle with, it shouldn't consume me as much as it has been. The bottom line is...
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." (Psalm 139: 14)
I need to be...
-secure in myself and my abilities
-secure in my relationships with my friends-they love me, that's why they hang out with me. Just because they look at me a certain way, or call less frequently than I would like them to, it doesn't mean there is something wrong with me.
-secure in my relationships with my co-workers. Just because they don't always tell me I'm doing a good job, or they like what I'm doing...I need to remember that that's not why I'm here working.
-secure in my relationship with God
-secure in my appearance
-secure in my future
-secure in my finances
....and secure in everything else as well.
I am finding lately that because I'm not secure in those things, I am always consumed with improving myself, when I REALLY need to focus on OTHERS and how I can help them, or improving my performance at work, thinking of new ideas, etc, etc, etc. It's a little frustrating because it's been such an ongoing struggle, but I think that if I do concentrate on that as my "word" this year...it'll be a constant reminder to be secure in those things, and it may improve other areas of my life as well.
Also, by writing this, I give you COMPLETE permission to call me out on any insecure statements that I may make. I definitely need help with this stuff, I obviously can't do it alone.
The truth is...
-I am pretty cool, even if I'm not great at everything that I do...I do have some good qualities :)
-I have AMAZING friends
-God is awesome and is faithful to me every day
-I have more than enough money to take care of the things that I need
